~chantalcloud

A year and three months ago, Chantal found her first boyfriend. After loosing contact with him, I concluded that our relationship had fizzled out. I started college and began to focus more on my studies than having a relationship. But something happened this summer. I got a job, and there I met a really nice guy.

He helped me feel like I was apart of the close knit group the store had, and I slowly opened up in there. He brought out the true me and I didn't know it at the time, but I had fallen for him. Almost two months after I had been hired, he had asked me out. We started dating and I became even more attached to him than I thought I would.

Well...a month and a half later, he ended it. I'm sick from crying myself to sleep for two nights now, I hurt so much, and I can't forget him. I've lost my interest and inspiration for rping, drawing, and my work. He was fired a week and a half afer he asked me out. It hasn't been the same there without him around. And now...I'll probably never see him again. I'm forgetting his voice, the one thing I was dying to hear all last week. But I can't forget his smell or how he made me feel when I was just talking to him or near him. I can't forget him, even if I cannot remember his voice. I still see his face in my mind, and in my dreams he has been apart of them everytime I cry myself to sleep.

I think I am going to take a break from roleplaying for a while. I don't have the energy to write and I am not in the right mood to either. I'm so sorry to those who are waiting on me. Hopefully this will pass, and I can move on, but right now I hurt so much. I need time to recover from this.